I will not hit snooze on my alarm but instead will jump out of bed perky, cheerful and ready to greet the world with ambition and a unwavering positive attitude.
I will shower, dress and prepare a cup of tea before sitting down for a full, uninterrupted hour of fellowship with my Lord; I will not fall asleep while reading or praying.
I will throw on my apron and begin cleaning the house - working until 9 am - the amount of time it will take to make everything in my home, from top to bottom, sparkle and shine like dew drops in the early morning sunlight. By noon, the smell of fresh bread from the oven and a perfectly tender roast in the crockpot will permeate the air. 4 dozen chocolate chip cookies will be cooling on the counter.
I will feed the kitty, eat a light and healthy salad - dressing on the side - and head out to run my errands, making sure to have my perfectly organized list in my perfectly organized purse. I will return home in exactly one hour and unload my groceries that I purchased all at 70% off using coupons. I will sort the mail and pay any bills that are due. I will then sit down and write 3 blog posts and schedule them to post precise intervals through out the next week.
I will greet the children with a kiss and sit down with them to eat milk and cookies; of course, I will eat an apple and drink water. We will immediately do homework and I will be able to help with all the problems - even the Advanced Algebra. This kids will thank me and tell me how lucky they are to have such a smart mom; and then proceed to set the table with our fine china - with out even being asked.
Egads. Blah, blah, blah, blah... I can't believe you are still even reading this!
Let's try this instead.
Today I am human.
I over slept...along with both of the kids. And they were NOT happy when I drug them out of bed. We were out of cereal, so I made them each a piece of toast and slapped some PB on it, in-between yelling up the stairs at them to hurry up and trying to keep the cat off the table and out of the peanut butter. I tell the boys I am sorry for the rush, Isaac tells me not to worry about it, and Colin responds with something that resulted in me telling him that he better watch his attitude or his life as he knows it is over.
With a little more pushing and nagging the kids are out of the door. I
I decide to get the errands done and push myself out the door. At my first stop I find a sign on the door saying they aren't open today; At my second stop, the clerk tells me the item I ordered and was promised would be in yesterday won't be in until next week (Errggh.); At my third stop, the grocery store, I spend what seems like half an hour trying to find my grocery list at the bottom of my purse - then realize I left the 5 precious coupons I managed to find time to clip out - at home on the counter. I finish my shopping and check out - having to "borrow" $5 from the gas envelope to pay for groceries because I went over budget. 2 hours later I get back home - cranky, frustrated and desperate for a nap. I walk into the kitchen to find that the cat knocked over the water glass I left on the counter and it has spilled all over my forgotten coupons and the mail I've been ignoring for a week.
Should we just stop here or would you like me to keep going? Uffda...
Somewhere between my dreams and fantasies there is a reality check.
In my mind, I would love to be the perfect mother. The perfect wife. The woman who can do it all - and do it flawlessly day in and day out. But reality has hit home and I have come to the freeing and healthy realization that - just like some of things on my never ending to-do list -
In fact, it will
And I am ok with that.
I will strive to do my best. I will make my to-do list, clip the coupons that I can, and clean my house in-between guitar lessons, Scout meetings and episodes of the Biggest Loser.
I will hug my kids and apologize when I screw up. I will give myself grace on the bad days; and I will thank the Lord above for the the great days.
And, honestly, who want to be a Ms. Polly Perfect Homemaker anyhow? She's so annoying I can't even finish writing a blog post about her. Bleh.
Be blessed. Be Brave. And give yourself Grace.
Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. ~Pillippians 3:12-14